I DO

Pictures of the beautiful bride and handsome groom. Lots of fun, late nights, and love goin on :) Just got a text saying they just pulled into the condo in Gulf Shores!

Miles, the ring bearer

Khloi, flower girl

 First dibs on the dollar dance, Clarky!

Strange

Likely that I'm just losing my mind but here lately I have been doing some things a little out of the ordinary, and especially at night!
1. Getting up and going to the bathroom (I sleep through everything so this is odd). Yes a pregnancy symptom but still odd to me.
2. Turning on the wrong highway either to or from work
3. And this is the weird one. Last night I woke up holding my wedding band between my fingers. Not the big ring...so I kinda freaked and panicked. It was on the floor. So somehow I managed to take it off in the night and either drop it or throw it in the floor. And my wedding ring was soon on it's way I have a feeling.

...what in the world??

oh, and I'm loving my new laid-back summer schedule.

Graduation and Parties

We have been super busy with Audrey's graduation, school ending, and planning for Allie's wedding.

 Audrey and friends since diapers Marky

 Laughing :)

Sisters 

Half-eaten cupcake cake

Audrey is going to Arkansas Tech in the fall. She is interested in Child Welfare. Good Luck, Audrey! I love you.

Fun, fun bachelorette party for Allie: Fuji's in Conway, scavenger hunt in Target, and games at my house.

 Before we left...

 Fuji's, yummm

 Target scavenger hunt

 Toilet paper wedding dresses, Allie voted!

5 days and counting!!

Doctor

The doctor appointment Monday went well, in case any of you were wondering! We decided to drive down Sunday night (mostly because we were BORED!!) and watched a movie. Got to sleep in til 730! That is better than 530.

Doctor said everything looked good! Now we just play the waiting game for a few weeks. Thank you all again so much for your prayers. We covet them.

The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective. James 5:16b


Here's sweet Kinley in her pool while mommy and I "layed out by the pool" :)

Pray

I had a doctor's appointment this morning early. Mom went with me because Kyle was loading/unloading hay all day. Everything looks great and is good to go. I have 4 eggs, 2 on the left and 2 on the right. The doctor said I may have 5 by the time they do IUI. We are scheduled to go back Monday morning at 8:30 for the IUI.

Please, please pray that at least one of those 4 eggs will take. I know I've prayed all along it be God's will, and I know it's all in his timing. But this once I'm praying specifically for it to work. Our insurance's balance is smaller and smaller and I just pray we do not have to do the IVF. IF we do, that will be fine. But for emotional sanity (again, me being selfish) I would really, really love for this to work. So please just pray that this month is it.

Monday at 8:30 :)

Love you all and thank you for listening to me vent, gripe and tell you our story.

Venting

Sunday at church was a hard one for me. I have been on an emotional roller coaster the past year or so. I really try not to act like it. I don't feel sorry for myself, nor do I throw myself a pity party. Each month, I just look forward to the next one. But after so long, I am thinking, "what's wrong with me? What am I doing so wrong that I do not deserve a growing family?" Then I bring myself back down, am hopeful for another few weeks and it all hits me again. I've prayed and "not worried about it" but really it gets to consuming my thoughts. Not necessarily my life, but my thoughts. I don't really want to talk about it though unless I am ready to. And now is a time when I am ready.
Sunday the pastor spoke on Moses as a baby. It seems like the past few weeks at church have been about someone being "blessed" with a baby in the bible. Which is great, right? Yes, it is. But when you can't have one, it makes me wonder why I am not "blessed." So this Moses story (as Moses got older) was about giving up what you have for God, even if it means a different life than what you are used to. Then, the altar song was I Surrender All. Which I could sing every word to. But I didn't sing. I stood there in my pew and it hit me like a brick wall. Surrender...
One of those words that is easier said than done. So my prayer is that God will teach me how to surrender because I know if I pray, "I give it to You, it's in Your hands," that won't happen because I don't know HOW to do that. I can pray that but my actions do not show it. So I am trying. Really, really hard to just surrender what is mine to God and am hopeful that one day we will have a blessing of our own running around here. (But I will not put him in a basket and send him on his way :)  )

Busy, Busy

I apologize for the HA-UGE pictures last post. I just wanted you to see the awesome storm pictures up close!

Lots going on here lately. Easter was a success! We went to Disney on Ice (I think I mentioned that earlier), had an egg hunt and Allie's shower on the Saturday before. Thank you Lord, for giving us a reason to celebrate this special holiday.

In baby news...we have decided to take this month off (from doctor's visits). Kyle was gone for a week and the doctor advised us to just take a break and think about our options. So that's what we are doing. I go back probably within the next week or so. We are thinking one more IUI try and then if we need to go to IVF that is what we will do. Not looking at it as a last resort but just the next step to our hopefully growing family. Just a lot more invasive procedure with lots of self-giving shots. Ouch.

Here's a little preview of the bride-to-be. Remember I am not a photographer...these are just pics of the photographer taking her pic mostly. Photographer was Michelle Hayward. Longtime friend of the family.

(Allie's dress is a "remodeled" version of mom's wedding dress).

 I cannot wait to see them all!

Oh...I won an apron today from my new favorite store, Riffraff (click on store name to go to their facebook site)!! Yay for drawings!! :) Will post a pic when I get it.