Why

First I want to say I truly enjoy days/afternoons home with Kyle. Even if we are just watching TV, cooking or eating dinner, or just whatever. I love being home.  Last night we went to Allie's for a little bit, then came home and watched season one of How I Met Your Mother. LOVE that show, and can never catch the new episodes. So I bought them and slowly but surely we will catch up and can't wait to find out who the "mom" is...whenever they decide to tell that!

I got on here to change my background from candy canes since we are no longer in the Christmas spirit. I mean...I still am because technically I'm off work until Thursday :) But I just started thinking about why I blog. And what people might say or think when they read my blog. So- I will tell you why I blog.

I am not much of a writer. Or a reader for that matter. I enjoy reading other people's blogs and looking at pictures. And occasionally I'll get stuck on a book series (currently the Hunger Games). But writing...not so much. I hated in college when we had to write papers and they had to be so many pages long. I mean, really- I can state what I need to say in three points usually and it doesn't take up that much room! I don't like it. But some of my friends started blogging and that's how I was keeping up with them and their newly born children :) I can't imagine not reading the blogs and not knowing what was going on. So, I thought it would be neat to do the same for friends and family to keep up. Except there wasn't much going on in my life...except IVF.

I am not someone who shares my business with everyone. If I wanted you to know something, I would tell you. And I was like that at first with infertility. I didn't want people feeling sorry for us; I didn't want people talking and spreading things that weren't true. But at some point I realized I HAVE to talk to someone about this. And I needed to. Of course Kyle and I talked about it, but not much. Just the necessities. I needed someone to understand what I was going through. And, honestly, unless you or someone close to you has gone through this, it is very hard to understand. Meaning when the world tells you, "It will happen" "It's all in God's timing" "Just quit trying- that's what we did" "Adopt!" they mean well, but to me it was hurtful and saddening.

I am not writing for people to feel sorry for us. I am not writing for attention. I am not writing to broadcast our business to everyone. However, if our story can reach someone else, or if someone needs to talk about their own infertility struggle, great! I know others who have done so and continue to do so for me (Sarah :) ) And even if no one reads everything I post...that is absolutely ok with me. I at least can get my feelings onto "paper." And I know through my updates that I make it onto some of your prayer lists. And that is exciting. :)

-- I would also like to say, I'm not sure how to get that huge picture at the top smaller :/ I did good to even upload it where it was supposed to go!