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Happy Birthday to Allie! She is 22 today. I can't believe she is almost done with college and getting married in a few months. Today, she said "this is my last birthday as a Dickey!!" That girl is so funny, and we laughed the whole spring break thanks to her! We got manicures and pedicures yesterday for her birthday. Fun times.

And, MaryBeth, I think something is wrong with my iPhoto?? I click on the picture icon and a screen pops up with picture files, but I can't see the picture...and I refuse to go write down the number of the picture I want and then search to find it to put it in here! So when I get this figured out, I'll post some pictures along the way.

Just a little about our life here lately...
A year or so ago, Kyle and I decided we were ready to try to start a family. I had been off birth control for a while, but we weren't really "trying." When we actually started trying and it didn't work immediately, I was shocked. I thought, you get married, you have kids and it's all that easy. But, I found out, for some people it's not that easy. We tried it all...anything I heard that could "help" you get pregnant I did. I won't go into detail, but trust me, I tried it all! Last May, I talked to Kyle about going to the fertility clinic. I wasn't a big fan. I wanted a baby so bad, but because of what some people had shared with me, I thought I would be messing with nature, and what God had planned. I have heard a million times, "When it's meant to happen, it will happen." and "Quit trying and you will get pregnant." So I made the appointment... And I canceled the appointment. I thought we would give it a try a little while longer. Still no luck.

November rolled around and Kyle was behind me full force when I made the appointment again. I didn't mention that before this referral, I talked with my gyn doctor (who I love) and we did some pre-tests to determine if there was any reason for infertility. We found that I have a partially blocked tube which could be the culprit. We went to the appointment and were very optimistic when we left: Kyle's insurance covered 100% up to a certain amount, and the doctor didn't think we would have to do anything invasive at this point. Since November I've taken several different medications. I'm not a big medicine-taker so this is an adjustment. I have done everything he has asked but not without question :) I just wonder sometimes why I'm taking a certain medicine if my body already does what the medicine is prescribed to do. But he is the expert, here.

Last month, we tried IUI and were very hopeful, although the success rate is the same as a typical try for pregnancy (15-20%). We were hopeful, but realistic...an 80% chance it could NOT work. Still, when I took the test and it said "not pregnant" I was still let down...I guess that is the word.

We know that our timing is not God's timing. I have been ok throughout this whole thing. Sad, yes but I haven't had a meltdown, lol. It is not my place to understand God's plan, but I sure would like to know it! I also know that we are put through trials so that someday, we can help others in the same situation. This is what keeps me afloat.