Changing directions

I have so much to blog about but I'm going to try to stay somewhat on task so that I don't bore you all. Look at this precious little Maelea at her first birthday party:

She is such a doll. Audrey and I went up for her birthday party, then stayed the night in Branson to shop the next day. Found this at The Landing....

No one probably thinks this is cool. BUT...the guy was drawing it with chalk and it was about 20 ft. long. You can't tell what it is until you get right in front of it. Then, it looks 3D through a camera! I was impressed...

In baby news:

As most of you know, we have tried three IUI's at our fertility clinic. Three unsuccessful IUI's. And, as I've stated before that this is very much an emotional roller coaster for me. Our doctor told us that the next step will be IVF (in-vitro fertilization). This last doctor's visit I had a cyst on my ovary which was very frustrating, but I believe that God has a plan in all of this. A plan for a break, or refresher...

A few days after that doctor's visit I remembered talking to a man at the Christmas Kick-Off last year (booths and things just before Christmas). He sells all-natural juices and supplements and had said, in passing, it helps with cleansing the body, regulates blood pressure, gives you energy, and they have had infertile women become pregnant. (This is also the juice that Kyle's grandpa drinks. Last March he was placed on hospice, now he's bailing hay and pulling calves.) Now...when we were talking about this I had my mind made up to go to the fertility clinic already and I didn't really pay that much attention. I don't consider this stuff magic because that was just one or two cases. I thought of this the other day, I'm guessing because I'm scared to do the IVF. I don't want to take shots four times a day, I don't want to be on several different medicines, I don't want to have to be put under for egg retrieval...and most of all I'm just scared I'll go through all of that and it won't work. I told Kyle about it and he said he is game for anything that I want to try. He is for the IVF but says that if I don't want to do it he completely understands because he really wouldn't want to do it if he was the girl in the situation (go figure!).

So, I called the man first thing Monday morning. He was very nice and explained the benefits of each thing I would need to take. He said, "I'm not guaranteeing a pregnancy, but I will guarantee that you will feel better and it is ridding your body of any impurities." Which is nice, since I've been on about ten different medicines since last November. I just hope that I can feel better. I feel like I run myself ragged going to all of the appointments, pharmacies, friend's house for shots, and working full time on top of that. And here lately I've been running a low grade fever and have just felt "bad." If this stuff makes me feel better and in six months we still have no baby, then we will look into IVF or adoption. But for now, I'm switching gears into getting my body back to normal without all the hormones. and stimulators. and shots...you get the picture.