Here we go again

I got all of my medicine in the mail yesterday. I went through to make sure it was all there. Yep. All there. It seems I got more needles in this package...I'm thinking that's not a good thing. Maybe they just sent extra?

I start the first injection medicine on Monday and will be taking it until the transfer. I don't want to post when specific appointments are because I just want it all to work, and if it doesn't I really don't want people to be asking. Not that any of you would, but I'd just rather let you all know when we are pregnant. :) I can tell I have been dealing with this for awhile because, used to, people would say things like, "Oh, just quit trying and it will happen." or "You guys are trying too hard." or "If you adopt, then you'll get pregnant..that's what happened with ______." While I know all of these people mean well, it used to just drive me bonkers when people would say this. I realized they just do not understand the emotions that go along with not being able to start a family. Those statements can be very hurtful if you let them be. Although I know it will hurt if this try doesn't work, I do know that God has a plan for our life and he is working everything out for good- and this is just the next step in the journey. It just would be a little helpful if we knew exactly what journey we were on. :)

We did find out that we get an adoption benefit from Kyle's work. It's seeming like whatever route we end up taking, God is going to bless it. He has allowed us to do the fertility treatment at a much lower cost. Most people's insurance does not cover infertility. Kyle's does, and we are out the copays, medicine, and hotels/gas to the doctor. Which is still a lot but it's about 40% of the total cost of the treatment. I always ask Kyle, "How are you supposed to know what God is telling us to do? I mean, He's not gonna say- Hey, how about you do IVF?" We came to the conclusion the other night that he opens doors for you. If and when we are to stop this process that we are doing now, the door will close...somehow...and we will know it. That is the only thing that keeps me sane!

Please pray for us as we begin this second trial, and hopefully last trial. We are ready to fill up our new Tahoe with babies. :)

**I'm adding this in the bottom because her hubby just posted on facebook, so I think I can share now. But so happy for one of my best friends for their baby due in December! Love you Whitney!**

Went through my pictures today and some of my favorites: